For the last few months, my company has been undergoing a massive restructuring. Our new CEO, who started back in April, has been working hard to make us a better company. He recently announced to the “street” increased revenue targets, and the “street” has loved us.
From inside, we have more weary than energized staff. New lingo like “You can’t argue with the numbers” or “it all goes to the bottom line” are applied to streamlined (aka, smaller) teams. For the good of the whole, individuals are the cost of doing business. It is with sadness that I see capitalism at its finest.
For me, all of this has put me into the dark funk of self-accusation. It’s the voice that says in my head, “You’re not needed. You’re not worth what they pay you. So-and-so would be better at that new job. You don’t want to stay anyway. If I get laid off, I’ll lose my house… car… health insurance. I’ll never find another job at my age.” The list goes on.
The relentless onslaught of personal condemnation is overbearing and pervasive. The ABCDEs of learned optimism are powerless to stop the mental game. I pick up on the slightest hint of a decision, and extend it to the worst of implications. This is the overpowering weight the Accuser heaps on me – and so many others – in times like this.
Hence, why being in God’s Word is so important. I won’t speculate on the timing of this, but in my Daily Walk Bible, my readings for today came from Romans 6 – 8. Check this out:
“Who dares accuse us whom God has chosen for his own? No one—for God himself has given us right standing with himself. 34 Who then will condemn us? No one—for Christ Jesus died for us and was raised to life for us, and he is sitting in the place of honor at God’s right hand, pleading for us.” (Romans 8:33-34 NLTse)
Who dares accuse me? A co-worker? One of the (many) consultants? My boss? Myself? I mean, me? Dare I accuse myself of not being worthy for something when only God can condemn and I have been freed of condemnation? Do I dare tell myself that I am not worthy of some earthy thing when my eternal place has been determined? For God himself has given me right standing with himself.
This morning I stopped listening to myself. This morning God’s Word spoke directly to me. I told the Accuser to shut up. I told the Accuser that there is no condemnation.
“Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death?” (Romans 8:35 NLTse)
“No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.” (Romans 8:37 NLTse)
Victory is mine. Victory, Christian, is ours. We are free from condemnation. All of condemnation. Including the condemnation I speak to myself. All condemnation. No accusation from anywhere has power over me. Not a single spoken word. No a single whispered thought.
I am infinitely free of condemnation because of the death and resurrection of one.
Now those are numbers that speak for themselves.