Stuck

Every so often, I feel like I get stuck.  Church is kind of so-so.  My Christian friends seem to be a little too busy for deep conversations.  I pray, but it’s a quick message to God while walking between buildings at work, “Sure hope this meeting goes well, Lord.  I want to be like you. Oh, and make sure my son gets… or I have… or my boss…”

Life just happens and faith can so easily become part of the less important things I do. And that can send me into a tailspin of guilt and “must do” and “should do” activity.  Which, of course, makes faith feel a little more automated and routine.

But I have learned a little trick, if you will, to get me unstuck.  It takes a little while, and I have to first recognize that I am stuck, and then I have to remind myself of what to do next.  But also let me say that I am sure there are a bazillion ways to get unstuck, this is just what works for me.

I have several favorite bible verses, but one that I turn to is this:  “This is how we have come to understand and experience love: Christ sacrificed his life for us” 1John 3:16 MSG.  Very close to John 3:16, I know, but different in that this verse is in the middle of a whole chapter on how we come to know what love is.  It’s the sacrifice of Christ on the cross.  It’s the price He paid on my behalf.  It’s the cost.  And in juxtaposition to cost is worth.  You don’t accept the high cost of something unless it is worth something of great value.

The high cost – the price of His life – was accepted because He valued me so much.  My worth was equated with the Son’s life.

And that’s what I do.  I reflect on that.  I am worthy.  So much so, that God’s love is shown to me right there on the cross.  And as I think and reflect and praise that very idea, I see that my own worth is all tied up in the cross.  My own sense of value and own sense of self is right there on the cross because my ultimate sense of value comes in being assured of just how much the Creator values me.

As I reflect on the worth he places on me, I gradually see I am not really stuck.  Just in need of a little reminder that I am worthy.  Because for me being stuck is really about being unsure of my value, which leads to feelings of being stuck.

As I let that worth sink in, I remind myself that this also allows me to be called His child.  “What marvelous love the Father has extended to us! Just look at it – we’re called children of God! That’s who we really are.” 1John3:1 MSG.

Worthy to be called his child.  Let that really sink in.

Unstuck.